ma life!!!

i hate ma life.. i wonder y did i born on this earth.. god gav me everything...but he took away ma bff...ho i rili luv the most... i had a lot of fun wif her...but now...i oni hav tears wif me... all the hapiness,sadness,emoness,tat v shared together had become ma memories 4 now...which will last forever n ever.... n guess wat...we were fightin lik tom n jerry last year... but this year we became bff...which i couldn't believe.. we fight 4 silly things...which was so childish... we even played in the rain together....which was so fun...but still childish...i guess... we even throw soya drink in the school toilet...just 4 fun...hehehe.... last year all this was a memory of me n her together as FF...Frens Forever... but this year i was so hapie....tat she was my BFF...Best Fren Forever... we were together in everythin...we shared our hapiness together...we shared secrets...until there is no more secrets between us... but....as time passes we started to seperate from each other.... she was busy wif her...while i was busy wif someother thing... we started to avoid each other... we started askin each other ar u angry wif me...which became our daily question????? but v still din giv up...v both took a decision to try out again...our frenship... as usual...it oni last for few days...but not more than 1 week... after tat....all started again...i alwayz feel...tat she oni need me wen she's in class...wen she is out of class.......i'm no one 4 her..which didn't bother me a lot... so i took ma decision...to just b her gud fren...but not BFF.... n she aso agree wif it...i took this decision...since she change her featured fren...to some one else... which rili broke ma heart...but she was still ma bff... so now....she is just ma gud fren.... i'm regretin y did i was sooo close to her...which caused me to be appart from her now... i wish she will be hapie wif her new life tat she's gona start wif her new bff...or even wif just her frens...cause tats wat i want from her...... as far as i noe...god has oni let her cry...eventhough he gav her hapiness...but she is alwayz sad inside....which i can really feel it...since i was always beside her... so i try as much as i can to mak her laugh everyday,every second....but now i wonder wheather i still can make her laugh...or i can't since i'm no more her bff....which rili hurts!!!!! i can oni say one thing before leavin..... she is a best bff....tat no 1 could hav in their life.... i'm thankin god ho gav me her as ma bff.... i wish i still can be her bff....but its too late.... so for now.... sorry 4 everything tat i did or talk,which hv hurt u.... i'm so sooooooooooooooory...... n its time to say gud bye to bff....cause its no more... n its aso time to say hi to ma gud fren....which is gona b ma new relationship with her.... i hope i can b her bff again....wen time passess....